Falling off the hobby horse

August 14th, 2008

Every few months, a bubble occurs at work. It tends to show up after a few days of downtime, when scratching together a few hours of billable time seems impossible. It comes on suddenly, with a flurry of meetings. My desk begins to pile up. My life turns up another gear. Everything is due tomorrow, and the end is nowhere in sight. It bleeds into my free time; free time that may already be stretched by prior engagements and home projects and an ever-growing pile of mind-numbing DVRed programs.

That’s the nature of the business. I grumble. But I also bask in the glow of vocation, knowing that someone depends on me for his or her words, plans and ideas. That I get paid to do something I enjoy, something I should stay quiet about lest they realize what they’re paying me to do.

But man, it sure wreaks havoc on my hobbies.

As words flow toward one end, the means to keep up with the hobby side of writing dries up; the paths diverted. What was once fun becomes work. A source of pride becomes an millstone, hanging from my neck. Taunting me with its demise.

Because with the important things claiming their share of my life’s time, my hobbies fall back a bit. I am afforded no more time to write on my own. And newer, shinier hobbies show up, too. I sometimes think my computer keyboard is jealous of our new camera. Of each new book. Of the Olympics and, in the past, the NBA Finals.

And from there, things deteriorate. Out of practice, or with my ideas used up elsewhere, it feels like something is stuck, like writer’s block has set in, or that my thoughts have been stuck in my head too long, are no longer timely or spontaneous or fresh. This leads to abandonment, of ditching a great outlet because of the convincing nature of busyness.

In this way, work can get in the way of our hobbies. And sometimes, that’s bound to happen. But without that outlet, what do we have?

So I think a little harder. I glance at the screen a few times, scanning the page for something I’ve forgotten. Then I start typing. For me. For my sanity.

And to remember that our hobbies are crucial. Make time for them. Take a few minutes and do something you truly enjoy, for yourself, for those you care about, anything that gives you the feeling of artistic merit or release, even if that release comes from creating a small city out of model trains or playing an artful game of Madden 2005 or writing or designing your own site or crocheting rabbit-shaped stuffed animals or decorating the house. Even at work. During break. That taking 15 minutes out of your work day to do something fun is more productive than stewing over your work.

Remember that, above all else, hobbies are for us to unwind. That they’ll always be there when you come back. That they don’t understand the meaning of time. Most importantly, remember that our hobbies may not give us the support we need to live comfortably, but they certainly make life a lot more enjoyable.


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Issues Considered: Blogging, Books, Career, Friends, Meta, Photography, Television, Vilhauer, Writing

The CSA: Week 11

August 13th, 2008

At one point in my life, I had gotten over corn.

It was like the dark ages, a corn-free zone. It wasn’t that I didn’t eat it – I would, if given no other option, but sometime during my senior year of high school I just kind of seeing it as a viable choice. It wasn’t a conscious decision, I don’t think – it was just an organic result of a decade’s worth of cafeteria corn. Loose kernels, floating in corn-juice, with little yellow specks clinging to the spoon as you pulled it out of the serving line. Ugh.

CornAnd on the cob, things weren’t better. I never made an effort to purchase corn on the cob, would pass it up in buffet line, would forgo it’s messiness for something safer, like potato salad or another hamburger bun.

What makes this corn absence even more surprising is that I was a vegetarian, making corn even more important during any sort of already meat-infested meal. But aside from having corn used in a recipe, I was never crazy about it. I was non-plussed. Corn was not a part of my life.

So why am I so excited about it now?

Maybe weeks of beets and cabbage and kohlrabi have left me shell-shocked, longing for something familiar. But when I grabbed our green bag of farm-fresh groceries and I saw those tufts of corn silk peeking out the top of the bag, nestled in between a sole green pepper and bunch of carrots, I got excited. Like, really excited. So excited that I felt the need to send a text message to Kerrie, that moment, proclaiming the good news.

“Corn!”

Now, three ears of corn sit in our fridge, preparing themselves for a Friday night grilled salmon feast. I spent ages not caring about corn, and though it might seem silly to say, I’m glad it’s back in my life.

Welcome back, corn. Welcome back.

(The weekly haul, of course)
Corn
Onions
Tomatoes
Potatoes
Carrots
Various peppers
Cucumbers
Zucchini
Kohlrabi
Green beans


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Issues Considered: Food, Sioux Falls

Cloak of invisibility

August 12th, 2008

According to Scientific American, we’re getting closer to living out our weird Harry Potter-themed dreams.

Invisibility cloaks.

To be exact, it’s not true invisibility – it’s more of an optical illusion. But it’s getting closer, and the ramifications could be incredible, – at least, if not in real life, then throughout military and espionage fields.

From Scientific American’s site:

“We are not actually cloaking anything,” Valentine said in a telephone interview. “I don’t think we have to worry about invisible people walking around any time soon. To be honest, we are just at the beginning of doing anything like that.”

Valentine’s team made a material that affects light near the visible spectrum, in a region used in fiber optics.

“In naturally occurring material, the index of refraction, a measure of how light bends in a medium, is positive,” he said.

“When you see a fish in the water, the fish will appear to be in front of the position it really is. Or if you put a stick in the water, the stick seems to bend away from you.”

Imagine. You swoop the cloak over your body, effectively rendering yourself invisible, the light from around you cascading in different directions, fooling your enemies like a magician cutting his assistant in half. You’ve gone missing. Secret.

Pretty neat. Of course, I’d rather have the Marauder’s Map. MUCH more useful.


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Issues Considered: Science

Summer storms

August 12th, 2008

Through the window comes the smell of disturbed earth. Like blown dust in a long forgotten garage, miniature specs of scent floating in through the screen, carried along by the raindrops as they crash into the sidewalk.

Each car that drives by sounds like paper ripping. The rain is like a prolonged applause.

Thunder shakes the house. I jolt awake, but settle back to sleep knowing that there’s nothing better than opening up the windows, wide, to their fullest opening ability, and dozing off to the sounds of a thunderstorm.

Midnight dark, damp, cool and breezy. The occasional ruff from Becket. The sheets pulled up tight to stay warm.

Nothing says summer more than that.


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Issues Considered: On..., Outdoors

Sierra picture disguised as meta post

August 8th, 2008

Just testing out the new WordPress 2.6. And, while I’m at it, I’m checking the sweet WP-Flickr plugin.

Categories are all messed up, but I’ll be working on those. Some day. Or not. Whatever.

Here’s the picture.

sierra


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Issues Considered: Baby Pics, Meta, Sierra

Renewing my Olympic interest

August 7th, 2008

I’ve often viewed the Olympics with apathy. Depending on my mood, I’ve seen them as anything from jingoistic patriotism to a complete bore. There’s no reason for it. It’s just how I’ve done things, my mood dictating the worthiness of an entire World’s grand showcase. I’ve simply never really cared. At least, not since Magic and Michael suited up for the United States and beat the crap out of everyone else in basketball.

Beijing 2008So it’s with quite a surprise that I find myself caring this year.

Me. Mister Olympic Apathy. Why?

Maybe it’s the politics of the event. China is at odds with freedom of speech and journalistic integrity, which makes coverage from the event seem both inspired and covert, as if simply reporting the United States’ loss to Norway (already happened) was a matter of life and death. Tones seem more hushed, sentences carefully constructed. Research is mired in red-tape, and only the most cheery or most dire situations are reported. It’s either fantastic or apocalyptic.

And it seems like everything is ripe for an explosion of ill-will, the detonators set for craziness, that everyone will simultaneously snap and the months of preparation and training and readiness will be put to good use quelling riots and stopping nation-wide uprising, fighting through smog like a low-lying English fog, cutting through it with their bayonets and stumbling over the innocent.

At least, that’s how it sounds sometimes. There’s a lot of crap going on over there, and the best athletes in the world are now sitting in the stew. It sounds like a recipe for disaster, but it could all simply be overplayed media hype.

Maybe it’s the symbolism of the Olympic Games. We’re not watching person versus person – we’re watching nation versus nation, like a giant game of Risk without the problem of rolling the dice. And we’re learning, too. I couldn’t tell you where some of these countries are, but I’ll know (theoretically) by the end of the Games.

I’ll also know that North Korea and South Korea are at odds again, separating their names for the first time in the past three Olympics. I’ll know that most groups still see the United States as brash outsiders pushing their way through the fray, and our athletes will probably prove everyone correct.

I’ll know that it can be inspirational to see the one member of an Olympic team – the sole Kyrgyzstan representative, for example – walk through the opening ceremonies alone, with an entire nation standing behind him, rooting for him, a local celebrity, to be raised above the heads of his brothers and sisters even if he doesn’t bring home a medal.

Or maybe it’s just that I’m more familiar with the concept – and with the importance – of the Olympics. I recognize some of the athletes; can root for our country without feeling too overtly patriotic, cheering for some random sprinter just like I cheer for a random Skyforce player. Cheering for the uniform. Cheering for the team.

There’s a lot going on out there in China. A country is struggling to be recognized as fruitful, despite a political landscape riddled with scars. Thousands of athletes are fighting for 300 medals, for their countries, for their sports – for immortality, the chance to add “Olympic Medalist” to their resume, tagged onto their name for the rest of their lives.

An entire population is looking to the Bird’s Nest, hoping that the opening ceremony will symbolize everything that’s changing in China. That becoming a modern country is still plausible in today’s world. That change can happen.

At 8:08 p.m. on 8/08/08, 7:08 a.m. our time, the games will begin with a rising opening ceremony.

And contrary to everything I’ve thought about the Olympics before, I’ll be paying attention.

I’ll be watching. Finally.


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Issues Considered: Basketball, Sports, Television

What I’ve Been Reading – July 2008

August 5th, 2008

Let’s get used to one thing. I will probably only be writing about one book per month.

If I’m lucky.

Books Purchased:

Three Cups of Tea – Greg Mortenson and David Oliver Relin

On Beauty – Zadie White

Books Read:

Divided Kingdom – Rupert Thomson

A full twelve-months after bringing Sierra into the world, I find that my reading hasn’t been able to pick up. That’s okay – frankly, it’s not like I’ve been wasting away doing other things. For months she wouldn’t sleep well, so reading at night wasn’t as appetizing as, say, watching television, which could be stopped and started without any loss of momentum. And as she began sleeping a little better, playoff basketball reminded me how fun sports can be, especially when your team is winning.

However, I haven’t been able to embrace the idea of reading magazines instead of books. As I’ve mentioned before, magazines seen so forgettable; so fleeting. Instead, I need the heft of a book, the knowledge that what I just read wasn’t just published, but published VERY THICKLY.

Now that basketball is over, and re-runs have sent me running from the television, I’ve found two more distractions to the natural reading cycle: photography and summer. Most of my post-production work is done at night, during the time I’d otherwise be reading. And summer hits me every night, an urge to sit on the patio with a beer, to watch cars drive by, or to stare into the fire.

Of course, that hasn’t stopped me from being overly ambitious. I know I’ve been reading less and less, but for some reason I was driven to not only buy more books, but to select the longest books possible to read. We purchased Zadie Smith’s On Beauty (hardcover remainder at the right price) and Three Cups of Tea (Kerrie will be reading this for a book club, and the author is coming to Sioux Falls). Two books, two reasons, add more to the ever growing stack.

Then, in a fit of stupidity, I selected Haruki Murakami’s The Wind Up Bird Chronicle, 624 pages of supposedly brilliant literature. I haven’t started reading it yet. If I start now, I would only need to read 23 pages per night to finish it by the end of the month. It seems very doable, but that’s counting on the fact that I’d actually muster up enough energy to actually read every night.

Let’s just assume it’s going to take about 50-75 pages per session.

Divided KingdomThat’s the future, though. For this past month, let’s talk about the book I actually DID read: Rupert Thomson’s Divided Kingdom, a dystopian novel about the ultimate experience in “separate but equal” laws, set in England, based on the four humours.

The four humours. Yes. I’m spelling that the U.K. way, because that’s how it works.

To begin the book, England is being split apart by violence, apathy and consumerism. To an older wave of people, England has been ruined; to the younger, there’s little to no difference. A special interest group is devised, meetings take place, and it’s determined that the best thing to do would be separate all of the ill will by classifying four separate sections of the country and moving those with similar dispositions into each section.

The separations are based on the four humours – blood, yellow bile, black bile and mucus. Red, Yellow, Blue and Green. Confident and strong, angry and vindictive, melancholic and sad, worried and weak.

Naturally, the separations cause rifts, with entire nations developing differently, relations becoming strained and suspicions heightening. Life for the red area is clean and clear and privileged, while that in the yellow is dangerous and poverty-stricken. Only officials are allowed to cross, and even then it’s rare. But the urge is always there, and one top official, torn away from his family at a young age and raised in the Red Quarter, uses a convenient distraction to break away and discover the world he’s been sheltered from.

It’s an interesting premise, to say the least – an instantly memorable plot, one that nearly forced the book into my hands. Of course, as with any story as far fetched as this, the plausibility is thin, like a bubble. If this kind of extreme gentrification was attempted in real life, you’d find yourself in the midst of riots, with even the privileged fighting for their right to keep their Yellow-leaning son or daughter.

It’s one of the problems I have as a reader. At times, I have trouble suspending reality, allowing the story to take over, enjoying the product instead of focusing on the How. If a teenager doesn’t talk like he’s supposed to, I have a problem with that. If a concept seems flawed from the beginning, I have a hard time focusing on what’s working.

So I spent a good deal at the beginning wondering how this relocation would have even worked. The logistics seem impossible, the methods incorrigible.

And then it all seemed okay. I was caught up in the run from quarter to quarter, from VIP to convict and, eventually, nomad.

It all ended a little too cleanly, a little to Deus Ex Machina. And it began too flimsily, without the proper set up. But in the middle, you’ve got a case study in how different personalities interact, and how each of us have a little bit of each humour, and how keeping differing personalities apart does just as much to foster hatred and suspicion as mixing them together.

It’s a story about the roots of discrimination, but it’s also an interesting novel about a man on the run.

On the run. Like what I could be facing next month. The first month in the 3+ years of What I’ve Been Reading that comes and goes without a book, without a column, without even a peep about reading or literature or whatever it is.

If you’re missing me, you know where I’ll be. Huddled in a corner, with the covers up over my head, a flashlight beamed at my book, frantically trying to get something read.


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Issues Considered: Books, Literature, What I've Been Reading