Post marked stamps

September 17th, 2008

The vehicle looks like a pygmy ice cream truck, the doors opening the wrong way, the driver sitting as if he had fallen out of a Monty Python skit. The shorts are ridiculous, the black shoes and socks even worse. But to see him walking down my front walk is to feel the pangs of excitement, the promise of what could be. Open optimism, the glass not half full, but overflowing and pouring into a safety reservoir for later use.

The mail is coming. And I’m excited.

Always. Without fail. I view the coming of the mail the same way some wait for the morning newspaper, like some wait for the weather report, how others continue listening to the radio in order to hear the Twins score, with anticipation and promise.

This isn’t an “old man watching the ag report” phenomenon. This is a testament to the open possibilities of what could come in the mail, the same kind of tug that draws some to cliff jump or hike the Boundary Waters or travel to the Amazon. Except a lot more simple. And a lot safer.

The best part is, I know I’m not alone.

For most of us, it starts when we order something as a kid. The torture of waiting for something in the mail tears at us, as it did to Ralphie in A Christmas Story as he waited for his Ovaltine decoder ring. In college, it becomes a part of your day. Walking to the mailbox to see what stuff you get – letters from long-distance partners, checks from parents, packages from some midnight drunk shopping spree – is nearly equal to an early dinner at the commons in terms of importance and procrastination.

And then, you grow up. Your mail becomes more varied. More people ask for money, some give you money, others offer you riches unimagined. Cards from family members you can barley remember, orders you forgot you’d paid for. Every pile is a new adventure, a reconnecting with the outside world, a period of discovery that once connected us like no other, before the days of e-mail and its instant gratification and ease. Some of it’s utter shit. But equally, some of it is surprising. Exciting.

I must have an old soul, because I still long for the brief connection of the mail.

Magazines and other periodicals. Shipments. Birthday cards. Newsletters. Bills. I anticipate what could be coming each day. It’s the first thing I do when I stop home for lunch, and my hour seems derailed if the mail hasn’t arrived. I order enough things over the Internet to have perfected the longing need for mail delivery. When will my camera get here? Why hasn’t that book arrived? Shouldn’t my magazine come this month, or is it the November/December combined holiday issue?

And then it arrives. I look it over, skim through the stuff I have no interest in, and toss it on the pile. Just like that, it’s over.

But for a few brief minutes, from the anticipation and realization of mail delivery to holding those assorted items in your hands, anything is possible.


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What I’ve Been Reading, August 2008

September 11th, 2008

Sometimes, we find ourselves drawn to what’s comfortable.

Books Received:

McSweeney’s Quarterly Concern, Issue #28 – Dave Eggers (editor)

Books Read:

The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle – Haruki Murakami (not finished)

McSweeney’s Quarterly Concern, Issue #28 – Dave Eggers (editor)

Aesop’s Fables – Aesop

I spent most of the last month fighting through an extra-long book – Haruki Murakami’s The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle – not because it was difficult or boring (on the contrary, it’s really, really good) but because I have fallen out of the reading routine. The daunting nature of a 500+ page book contributes to an apathetic reading schedule, one that vacation and preparation and childrearing can only heighten.

And then, like a beacon of light, McSweeney’s delivers. Again. With – get this – a collection of fables.

Fables! Ha!

What do you remember about fables? When was the last time you read one? I mean, true fables – the short-form, lesson-teaching kind, chock full of animal personification and solid morals. It’s been a while, probably.

Aesop's FablesI know it was for me. In fact, it had been since high school. During a bout of Medieval immersion, a time when Malory was as important to my life as is Marx to a Communist, I found myself enthralled with the symbolism and frequency of myth. Not myth in a science fiction sense, but myth in an old bard sense, the telling of tales from one person to another, the epic poem, the British legends; Beowulf, The Odyssey, Canterbury Tales, Le Morte d’Arthur. And through this, I entertained a short child-like fascination with the most basic of tales: Grimm’s Fairy Tales and Aesop’s Fables.

These were the building blocks of children’s literature, the foundation upon Willems and Boynton now tread. But they were also life lessons, the best way to convey a message in the days before mnemonic devices were commonplace and the written word was still foreign.

So fables became legend. And McSweeney’s tackles the subject with gusto, asking eight writers to come up with their own version of the fable, binding them in small, attractive mini-books and arranging them to create a beautiful and artful package of literary wonder. It’s what McSweeney’s does best – find a theme, create beautiful book design, accomplish what’s becoming more and more impossible: a book worth keeping based on look alone, a book worth treasuring because of great content.

McSweeney's #28The best of these stories are simple, yet surprising. Arthur Bradford’s “Virgil Walker” follows an orphan octopus on his travels through a pet store and beyond, and Sarah Manguso’s “The Box” touches on a person’s ability to harness power through a simple secret. My favorite was Brian Evenson’s “The Book and the Girl,” the love affair between, naturally, a book and a girl, with the book’s need to be loved changing to fit the needs of a terror-stricken little girl.

I finished the entire set in 30 minutes.

And I needed more.

So I ran – nearly literally – downstairs and grabbed Aesop’s Fables. Dusty from two years untouched on the shelf and neglected from over a decade of ignorance, it was like holding a relic, like finding an old school-aged drawing in a box at your parents house. It was familiar, but foreign, as if I couldn’t remember the time it came from but was fully aware of its significance.

I dove in. I took it on the plane and read it in Virginia. Each story was about 100 words, and each held a life lesson, regardless of how relevant.

It’s funny how the same characters always keep popping up. The poor fox, demonized yet cunning, given a bad rap and justifying my fascination with the species in Mammalogy class so many years ago. The lion, a strong and ruthless killer, using its weight and power to get whatever it wants. The donkey, a punching bag; the monkey, a fool. Each animal receives a certain treatment, a certain human quality, and it’s easy to see where those treatments carry through to the rest of literature and modern culture, through every Disney movie and every allegorical work of fiction, from The Lion King to Animal Farm.

There are three simple rules you can learn from Aesop’s Fables:
1. Know your strengths and weaknesses. Don’t go for something you’re not, because you will be exploited.
2. Live humbly, if you can. Only the powerful ever seem to get away with being greedy, and even the Lion catches some flak from time to time.
3. Don’t be foolish. Life smart. Cunning will get you a lot, true smarts will get you everywhere.

The stories are humbling, really. Many morals seem to repeat, but at the end, I couldn’t help but thinking I had just read a textbook on rational thinking. Or street smarts. Or how to engage an adversary.

In fact, I felt as if a child-like curiosity had returned, that complex issues could really be boiled down to the bare minimum. It gave me hope that people could understand how their actions affect others, that each action carries with it a reaction. That life wasn’t solitary. That you have to give to get.

Best of all, I felt as if I had read something that bordered on legendary. Fables are simple but they’re striking. They work for eternity not in spite of but because of their simplicity. As Jess Benjamin, a former McSweeney’s intern, writes in the introduction of McSweeney’s Quarterly Concern #28:

The best of these stories last because their stories last – because they are conveyed in a way that cuts through the illusion of time and age and application. This is why Silverstein’s The Giving Tree will continue to resonate and why Dr. Seuss will keep on inspiring; we are never too old or young to be reminded of our mortality and the nature of our relationships, just as we are never immune to any truly universal message.

In a time where political trends nearly drive me to depression and the changing world leans further and further into demise, simplicity – the ability to focus on the issues that drive us instead of the inconsequential details – is welcome.

Even more, simplicity is necessary.


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The CSA: Weeks 14 and 15

September 9th, 2008

What do you do with 30 tomatoes?

50 potatoes? Five full-sized cucumbers? Two large bundles of carrots and 15 onions?

When you’re a family of three, with one of those three being just 13 months, how do you eat five squashes?

My fear is, you don’t. You let them go bad. You give them away. You forget about them quickly, lest your inner waste-not conscience smacks you upside the head.

Herein lies our problem. We’re waste-notters. And we have too many vegetables.

The week before we left on vacation, we were a total whirlwind of busyness, flitting around the house and town and all over the place like the proverbial chicken with no head, organizing the last week of daycare and preparing for a full-on onslaught of travel.

So we had little time to make real meals.

Which means our CSA sat dormant. Piling up. Spreading out and taking over the kitchen. And with a garden full of tomato plants, thriving even without a consistent water supply, we left town to a kitchen that looked like a cornucopia murder scene, vegetables spilled everywhere, covering the counter and threatening to climb up the walls.

While we were gone, we missed a Saturday, in turn, missing a week of the CSA. Thankfully. Otherwise, we’d be in even worse shape.

Instead, we returned to yet another half-share, lovingly deposited by my mother, and realized we had a problem. We had over 30 tomatoes total, now. Our potatoes had expanded, with at least 50 small tubers in several piles throughout the kitchen. Squash was on special, apparently, and cucumbers the size of overgrown zucchini threatened to take over our fridge.

(And yes, the aforementioned zucchini were available as well, in addition to more carrots and more onions, a green pepper and two jalapeños.)

So here’s our plan.

Eat them. All of them.

Tomatoes? Half went into an easy gazpacho recipe, as did one of the cucumbers and the green pepper. More cukes will be used in a cucumber melon sesame salad. Onions? Let’s have a redux of the incredible English Onion Soup with Cheddar recipe from Jamie Oliver. Potatoes and zucchini? Kerrie’s been waiting to make tiella for ages, and this is her chance.

I don’t think it will all be gone in one week. In fact, I fully suspect that our stash will grow again on Saturday, maybe to the point that we don’t make up any ground. Or (gasp!) we actually fall further behind.

But hey – with the price of produce and the freshness of what we’re getting, I can’t imagine I should be complaining about getting too much of a good thing.

(Of course, if you need a potato or two, you know where to come calling.)


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Off the grid

September 7th, 2008

This past week, I sat in the cabin of Kerrie’s uncle’s yacht. (Seriously. A yacht.)

We sped across the Chesapeake Bay on our way to the island of St. Martin, scooting to the left of Hurricane Hannah for long enough to enjoy a handful of local stone crabs and a pitcher or two of Stella Artois.

It sounds luxurious, but it was short. Hannah decided to rear its windblown head in our direction, and we had to high tail it out before the waves became too choppy.

We hit some wind, the spray from the Bay coasted into the boat, and I found myself gently caressed by salt water, not quite soaked but certainly not dry. I inhaled the breeze, enjoyed the speed and relaxed. I was off of the grid, with no worries, no connections, and no responsibility. I was just living life.

Similarly, I was off of the Internet, too.

Aside from checking my e-mail once every two days, I had no contact with the Internet during my entire vacation. Ten days.

I enjoyed it.

No offense to the handful of people I call my “Internet Friends” – those who I feel I have some kind of odd connection with due to constant Twitter updates and flickr longing and blog reading, but haven’t actually ever really met in real life – I just didn’t miss you that much. (I still like you – wait…why are you un-following me on Twitter? No!)

There’s an urge to constantly update your life on the Internet, to keep creating, to keep pushing yourself out further and further until you can’t go back – until the very idea of disconnecting from the Internet is frightening.

And there’s a logical answer: we only remember what we find interesting. If you hold up for a few months and come back to the Web, you’ll find yourself forgotten, for the most part. It’s part of being a member of the exciting world of Internet Creativity – for good and for bad.

So I’ve always felt a twinge of regret when I don’t write for Black Marks on Wood Pulp, or if I forget to check up on my favorite blogs, or if I lose track of some connection in the world wide web. I feel as if I’m missing out, like those guys who get the Season Ticket package and feel they have to watch every single game. It’s part of my obsession with being a completist.

This past week, I was able to let it go. And it felt good.

I still had ideas that needed to be burst forth. My Moleskin was never in the right place at the right time. I had lost the spontaneity that I love, the idea that my thoughts can be put on the page RIGHT NOW and people will read it, immediately, without worrying about time constraints or publishing windows or any of that annoying shit.

But I suppressed them. I collected them, until now, when I’m back at the computer, catching up on some things, letting others go, feeling completely at ease with creating a gap in the continuity of the Internet life.

Think of this when you’re feeling overwhelmed with the amount of information available. Take yourself off the grid. You don’t’ have to go nearly charging through a hurricane to do it.

You just have to be willing to sit back, let someone else take the wheel, and breathe in the air.


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I’m back…

September 7th, 2008

Chances are, you haven’t seen me around for a few days. There’s a reason. I’ve been on vacation, in northern Virginia, where Kerrie’s parents now live. It’s about an hour west of Washington D.C., and right in the heart of historical Virginia, where the streets are all cobblestone and the shops all consist of the same warped windows that have lasted through two of the country’s most recognized wars.

But more than that, I’ve been on a mini sabbatical, a rest from the world, respite from my constant wordsmithing. I’ve been recharging, as they say, and I won’t lie – I feel it.

I feel like I’m bursting with inspiration, my mind ready to take on the challenges of writer’s block. I feel like I’ve got things to say. Weekly and monthly columns to get around to. Books to pretend I actually read.

And, I feel relaxed. Probably for the first time since I stayed home with Sierra during my paternity leave. Relaxed, and thrilled about it.

With this relaxation, with the utter lack of responsibility and no need for critical thinking, I made some incredible realizations. Realizations that might seem banal, too simple to be revelations. But revelations all the same.

I realized that Washington D.C. isn’t a tourist paradise, but a legitimate amazing feat of urban design, mass transit and epic history. I realized that even the most hardened cynic can feel patriotic around the Lincoln Memorial. And I realized that after three years I still haven’t come to full terms with my grandfather’s death, a veteran of both the Vietnam and Korean wars, two wars memorialized in D.C. and located in close proximity for the maximum in emotional drainage.

I realized that history is unchanging, and that no matter how many layers of paint or remodeling jobs you do the ghosts of history still stand, watching you, Civil War caps tipped to the right, bayonets sagging under the weight of their ammunition, thousands of lives wasted for a quarrel, their remains creating the landscape that we trod upon.

I realized that 350+ pictures is probably enough.

I realized that a beer at noon tastes better than any consumed at night, that seafood pasta at home can reach restaurant like excellence and that the only thing you should do while on vacation is eat and drink and eat some more.

I realized that a week can easily be wasted just watching your daughter grow up.

Most of all, I realized that time off is necessary. That it’s healthy. That the problems of travel and close quarters and weather and delays and rising tension and lost productivity mean nothing when matched to the sheer expanse of soothing catharsis that comes from a few hours away from the grid. Or a few days. Or a week. Plus.

That’s all in the past, though. I’m back, and I’m glad.


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