Category: Sierra

A quick thought on patience

October 1st, 2010

There are times when I lie on the floor and grit my teeth as the kids crawl all over me, their knees and fingernails digging into my back, their laughing so uncontrollable that I get drool in my eye. And there are times when I read and read and read books until I can’t stand it anymore, until I’d just as soon smack little Ladybug Girl for being so precocious and hide Knuffle Bunny in the garbage forever.

And then, I’ll walk onto the next room, or I’ll crawl into bed, and Kerrie will be there, and she’ll say, “You’re a good Daddy.”

And I’ll stop and realize how lucky I am. How lucky any of us are.

Because there are times when they ask of the world for me. But there’s never a time when I wouldn’t give it to them.

How’s THAT for sappy? I think I need another brewery tour.


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Issues Considered: Family, Isaac, On..., Sierra

On living up to expectations

September 16th, 2010

It was for Sierra, this show – this Nickelodeon Storytime Live, this theatre performance of preschool-oriented cartoons, this “so-close-to-Disney-on-Ice-I-was-nearly-scared” experience.

It was her birthday present, after all. It was something she’d love – characters she talked about, DVDs she watched, songs she sang. And it was a chance to turn an early leave from work into a full-out Daddy/Daughter Date Night.

Which means it wasn’t really JUST for Sierra. It was for me, too.

Still, that doesn’t exactly qualify the excitement or anxiety I had. I spent the hours before the show wondering if she’d like it, the weight of expectation mixing in my gut, butterflies – seriously, you guys, BUTTERFLIES – as to whether my three-year-old daughter would totally love what was essentially a two hour long Nick Jr. commercial.

Sierra’s eyes sparkled through the first hour, soaking in the experience. And – boom – I finally got it. I realized that, indeed, this was an experience, one she would never again get: the feeling of encountering something new for the first time, in this case the grand stage and the power of live performance.

To us adults, this was just some actress dressed up like Dora. But to Sierra, this was something more. This was her first concert. Her first time to the theatre, watching a play; a glimpse at real acting. This was, discounting a random hug from Clifford the Big Red Dog a few years back, her first encounter with celebrity; her first brush with fame.

I went in feeling nervous. Not because I hoped she’d have fun, I discovered, but because I subconsciously hoped her first experience was similar to how I imagined my first: steeped in raw energy, the potential of the performance straining against what – up to that point – had been a one-dimensional fandom.

I guess it passed the test. She sang. She jumped up and down and clapped. She told me her favorite parts (Princess Dora) and even rooted for the bad guys. Most of all, she gave rapt attention, not missing a single word, loving every minute of the performance all the way up until Dora walked off into the sunset, at which point – in typical toddler fashion – she shifted gears.

“Can we go to Pizza Ranch now?”

You bet, little girl. Let’s wait until these goosebumps go down, first.


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Issues Considered: On..., Sierra, Television

“What was your favorite part?”

September 12th, 2010

Part of Sierra’s nightly routine is that she gathers the two of us – Mommy and Daddy – into her room and asks us, with all earnestness, what our favorite part of the day was.

Full disclosure: this is a direct rip-off from Dora the Explorer: after every puzzle is solved and the final treasure is discovered, Dora and Boots stare out into the preschool ether and ask everyone what their favorite part of the episode was.

First, Kerrie asks me. Then, I ask Kerrie. Then, we ask Sierra what Isaac’s favorite part.

Finally, we ask Sierra.

What makes this routine so special isn’t that we get to sit together and talk before going to bed – it’s that we get a firsthand look into what makes Sierra tick. Unfiltered, she offers a split second decision on what made her the happiest; ultimately, she’s letting us in on a secret that most kids hold tight, saying, “Mom, Dad, this is the point when you succeeded the most in being a great parent.”

It’s a daily affirmation that she’s enjoying life. It’s a constant reminder that, despite our not always being sure we’re doing the right thing, that Sierra loves us unconditionally. That she’s happy. That we’re doing okay.

“My favorite part of the day was picking strawberries yesterday.”

“My favorite part of the day was going to get ice cream.”

“My favorite part of the day was when Daddy picked me up from preschool and I saw him and I yelled ‘Daddy!’ and ran to him.”

Me too, Sierra. That was my favorite part too.


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Issues Considered: Isaac, Sierra

On the first day of preschool

August 30th, 2010

Let’s talk about the point when we let go.

No. On second thought. Let’s not. Because this isn’t letting go in the traditional sense.

This is simply me, writing a note to my little girl, sticking it in her backpack and watching as she toddles up the steps to her first day of preschool.

And this is her, at ease and excited, taking in the situation and accepting her role as a child who’s ready to learn. To learn differently, without the eager eyes of her parents looming over; instead, with the freedom of individuality.

And this is us. Realizing that it all moves so fast. That cliches are true. And that while we’re not letting go, we are beginning to ease up on the reins.

That, though she can’t yet read it, she’s been given the go ahead.

“Sierra -
Enjoy this – your first day of school.
You are going to have a great time.
I am already so proud of you.
Love, Daddy.”

I can’t wait to hear how it turns out. Every single day of it. I can’t wait.

And until the end of each of those days, I’ll learn to slowly let go, a little at a time.


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Issues Considered: Education, Sierra

Puddle jumping

August 23rd, 2010

It took six inches of rain water, slowly creeping up my pant leg, to put my mind at rest.

More than that, it took the happy shrieks of a puddle-jumping toddler. A preschooler, nearly; her ladybug raincoat dripping with rain, her snow boots soaked.

I viewed the incoming storm as an adult, fighting to keep settled, cycling through grown-up problems – home repair and career jitters and the constant march of time – while Sierra took the rain as a blessing.

Simplicity as dictated by an overeager three-year-old.

She didn’t give a damn about the 9-to-5 or per-square-yard carpet costs. She didn’t realize the rain was pouring down hard enough to give her daddy a stress headache.

She cared that there were puddles. And that she had a reason to put on her raincoat. And that, while only minutes ago she had been sad that the sun had gone away, she now had an opportunity to rid the evening of the weight of adult seriousness.

I was powerless to resist. So I obliged.

Good thing, too. It’s amazing what a little bundle of sunshine can do as it splashes through the rain.


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Issues Considered: Sierra

D*** it

August 20th, 2010

SIERRA: Damn it.
KERRIE: Sierra, little girls shouldn’t say “damn it.”
SIERRA: *beginning to cry* Only mommies and daddies can say “damn it?”
KERRIE: Well, even mommies and daddy’s shouldn’t say it.

SIERRA: *holding back tears*

SIERRA: So NO ONE can say “damn it?!”

(Great. Go ahead and guess where she learned THAT phrase. One hint: IT WAS ME.

I’m probably too early for the Father of the Year award, right?)


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Issues Considered: Sierra

A quick note on children’s brands

August 15th, 2010

Proper spellings of children’s brands that I’ve encountered today.

  • Play-doh
  • Crayola
  • Fisher-Price
  • MB Games

Outside of Crayola, I’d have spelled every one of these wrong. The last is the most surprising to me. Not Milton Bradley, which was a staple of my childhood, but MB Games. Flip the box over, and you’ll see a link to Hasbro.com. A quick Wikipedia search confirms that Milton Bradley was taken over by Hasbro.

In 1984.

My peanut butter is in my chocolate and all of that, right?

In other spelling foibles, Fisher-Price has a hyphen. I had no idea. Also, I swore Play-doh was spelled without the “y.” Funny – I’m convinced it’s spelled EVEN MORE wrong than it actually is.

This is all without mentioning the brand-less watercolors I wiped up yesterday.


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Issues Considered: Isaac, Sierra, Words